The Only Difference Between A Martyrdom & A Suicide Is Press Coverage.

First Question.. Does Anybody Out There Have There Field Guide To Surviving Life? Because I Seem To Have Officially Lost Mine..

I Dont Know If Its All The Stress Ive Been Feeling As Of Late Or The Head Rush Of Emotions & Thoughts That I Get From Blaring My Ipod In My Ears To Much For To Long. But I Seem To Be Reflecting Alot On How My Life Used To Be & How It Is Now. I Woke Up Today And Realized That Somewhere Along The Line Recently... Somehow, Someway I Did Something I Was Trying Everything In My Power Not To Do... I Grew Up. >.>

For Real, I Went From About 2 Really Close Friends & A Few Others Not So Close.. Going To Bed Whenever I Wanted & Barely Wanting To Wake Up Whenever I Did The Next Day. I Had Alot Of Time & A Shit Ton Of Space To Just Be Me.. In My Own Little World. My Own Personal Style.. & Now Im Just Another Guy With Like 1 Real Friend & No Clue What Or Who I Am Anymore.

The Transition Has Been Worth It On A Few Fronts Though. Meeting & Moving In With A Girl I Could Easily Marry With The Right Time & Proper Emotional Investments Put In.. All The Freedom I Could Ever Want To Be Me.. I Gave Up Some Personal Space But You Know Fuck What The World Thinks Is "Healthy" For Me To Have. I Enjoy Having Her Invade My Space Bubble. I Enjoy Alot Of Things About Her That She Will Just Never Get But Ill Be Damned If I Ever Think For One Second My Love For Her Will Die. Cause It Wont.

Case & Point.. I Hate Not Knowing Who I Am Or What I Want & The Faster I Figure That Out The Better For My Own Mentality. Because My Heads All Up In The Clouds With A Bunch Of Shit.. & I Really Need To Clean Out The Garage.

-BayLey