May The Force Be With You, Always.

To Put It Simply, I Am A Unique Enigma & You Will Never Understand Me.
My head is the most complex labyrinth in existence. Many people have wondered into it unknowing of the danger that lies ahead & been lost forever. "Alice, In a wonderland she was never ment to survive"
I find most things funny, That others may find horrible or unbearable. Im the guy that laughs in the theaters during the SAW movies. Some of my favorite movies =)...
Ive been thru enough in my life that most people havent. My past, Is torn & tattered. Full of self inflicted pain, Mental & Psychical alike. Full of pain from other people, To be honest with you was only just this year (2012) that I started to let myself feel any emotion again, Whether it be good or bad. I lived life with all emotion off for a good 4 years. For a while there, I was enjoying the Monster I had become. It was freeing in a way. I claimed no attachment to anything. Therefore I was Truly FREE. I find Life to be an interesting topic. I find things about it puzzling. Like how, I decide to let my emotions turn back on, Just before I go into Century 16 Theaters On the night of July 19th... For a Midnight Showing of Batman, In theater 8. You do the research..
I did, At one point, Believe in this thing called "Love"... Experiences cast that thought quickly out of my head. Quickly, I was done with it. There is one person currently, Slowly, Bringing it back to me. Inch by Inch she makes me remember what it feels to Live & Love... I enjoy her company. Since 15 years old, I have been living Life, Everyday to the fullest. Because it was then that I had first experienced Loss. I knew then & there, That to live everyday like it was your last was the only way to truly live, Because after all.. You dont know when someone you love, Or you yourself will be living there last day. Be taking there last breath, Cherish it if you enjoy there company. Tomorrow they could be gone.
On The Surface, Im as simple as I choose to be. I play video games like a bad habbit, A video game junkie I call myself. Also I refer to myself as a "Thrasher" Its my style of music, Keeping the company such bands like... Blink 182, All American Rejects, Eve 6, Incubus, Paramore, Papa Roach, Rise Against, Eyes Set To Kill, Atreyu, Flyleaf, Hinder, Sum 41, Simple Plan, 3 Doors Down, Nickleback, Bush & Nirvanna & The list does go on... Im a Smart ass because its my bodys natural reaction to stupid fucking people. At least im honest. Im not religious because truly I dont give a shit & the world has made me question if whether or not, God is just a kid with an Ant farm he shakes every now & again... Im waiting for the aliens to come home.
I could tell you everything you never needed to know about Batman, Fuck, I Am Batman.
Hawkeye if were talking Marvel.
I could go on for hours but you know what, I dont have the time. You wanna get to know me? You wanna be a friend? Fine, Message Me, Add Me, Do what you will, Think what you want. I dont care. This is my Evolution. Im A Evolved. Im simply waiting for the next step.

-BayLey

When Do We Get To The Part When I Can Go Home? Ive Been Hiding Inside The Jungle Gym For Way To Long, Waiting For Someone To Come Along & Find Me.

I Have Alot Of Those Moments In My Life... (By Alot, I Mean Everyday.)... Where Theres So Many Things Cluttering My Mind That Im Grabbing The Lighter & Gasoline. The Point, Im Sure You Have Had Yourself Where "Fuck It, Let It All Burn" Is All That You Start Thinking Right??
Lets Get One Of Those Things Off My Chest Eh??..
I Am Currently Under The Impression That No Matter What, Ill Always Feel Alone. In My Head Anyways. No One, As Much As I Might Want Them To... Will Ever Match My Brain & The Way It Works. My Head Is The Greatest Puzzle On The Planet. No Contest.
Theres Everything From Song Lyrics To Global Domination Plans In There Okay.
No One Will Ever Come Along That Will Have The Same Pattern. Have The Same Concerns, Issues, Worries & Even Fetishes Or Pet Peeves. Alot Have Come Far, Some Even Very Close But No Cigar. I Like Isolation Tho.. I Like My Space. The World Bothers Me. The Stupid Things People Do Everyday On This Planet Make Me Want To Fly Away More & More Everyday. I Never Said It Bothered Me, I Just Said Ill Always Feel Alone. Now If Only It Stopped Bothering Me As Much...


-BayLey

My Life Is So Much More Interesting In My Head...

So Not Everything That Comes After Tragedy Sucks. Theres The Tears & Emotion True.
But, I Have Come To Find That My Recent Tragedy Has Lead To Something Quite Wonderful, Mallory.
Dont Get Me Wrong, I Can Thank Myself For Recovering & Being Happy.. But I Thank Her For Being & Feeling Loved. Haha, We Already Have Something In The Form Of A Vacation Of Sorts In The Works. One Week, All Week, Together. It Should Prove To Be Pretty Interesting. A Refreshing Break From The Outcast Feeling Ive Had Around Even My Own Home. Something Happens When You Go Thru, Experience Something Like What Me & My Sister Have Gone Thru. Its Crazy Really.
Unless You Are Talking To Someone Who Has Gone Even Remotely Close To What You Have.. They Dont Get It, Dont Understand It, They Never Will. You Might As Well Be Speaking A Whole Another Language. Life Goes On I Guess..

-BayLey

Whatever Doesnt Kill You Simply Makes You, Stranger.

Hello Readers...
Im Aware Its Been Quite Sometime Since My Last Post But Apart From Having Some SERIOUS Writers Block.. I Was Also Apart Of A Pretty Life Changing Experience.
On The Morning Of July 20th, Me & My 14 Year Old Sister Basher, Were At Century 16 Theaters In Aurora, CO. In Theater 8.
Most People Who Watch The News All Around The World Know Exactly What This Means. About 15 Mins Into The 12:01 Showing Of The Dark Knight Rises, I Hear What Sounds Like Fireworks But Turns Out To Be Bullets Rip Thru The Wall Of Theater 8. Hitting Bystanders Sitting Next To The Wall & Showering Them Will Rubble Fragments From The Wall As They Run Out Of The Theater Holding Areas On There Body Out Of What I Could Only Assume Was Injury .. Almost Immediately My Thoughts Rush To If The Friends Me & My Sister Had Made Pre-Movie Are Okay Or Not.. Then As If I Didnt Need Anything Else To Ruin Not Only My FIRST Midnight Showing Ever But Also The Good Time I Was Having Making New Friends & Even Flirting Just A Bit Haha. Someone Runs Into Our Theater & Says Not To Go Outside Because There Was A Man With A Gun Out There. By This Time I Had Known Something Is Not Right & At This Point, I Stopped Thinking & Just Started Doing. I Grabbed Bashers Bag & Put It On Her "Messenger Bag" Style & Did The Same With My Bag. She Grabbed Me Well I Moved As Fast As Possible With The Simple Thought In Mind That If Theres A Gun One Way, Then Im Going The Other Way.. We Moved Thru The Emergency Exit At The Top Of The Theater, Thru The Door, Across The Balcony. Checking Over The Railing For Anyone Holding A Gun. After Scanning The Lobby As Quick As Possible, I Moved Thru A Large Cloud Of What I Thought Was Smoke But Turned Out To Be Something Worse.. Not Sure Exactly What It Was But I Know I Damn Sure Couldnt Breath As It Entered My Lungs. Running As Quickly As I Could With Basher Attached To My Arm, We Made It Outside To The Sea Of Police Cars That Were Awaiting Outside & I Could Only Guess They Were Still Wondering What Was Going On Themselves. The Night Was Long, Hectic & Crazy. I Will Always Remember It, The Vigil Afterwards & Reconnecting With All The People I Had Met That Night. Just Knowing Them & Me & My Sister Were Okay Was The More Important Info To Me At The Time. Now I Have Healed. I Have Began To Move On... Batman Is Still My Hero. Always Will Be.

-BayLey

Well.. At Least Im Dreaming.

So Neiko (Best Friend) Asked Me Once.. "So, What Do You Think She Will Look Like Bro?"
& Naturally Since I Have No Idea At All What Goes On In That Kids Mind Half The Damn Time. I Said..
"Who?"
He Gave Me A Smirk Because He Had Never Herd Me Describe This Person Before, He Said..
"Your Dream Girl Man, What Do You Think She Will Look Like? Act Like?"
The Question Made Me Smile.. Made Me Laugh.  Surprisingly Its Something That I Had Not Thought About Alot But Enough To The Point Where I Know Everything I Would Ever Want Or Need In My "Dream Girl"... & Of Course I Would Not Be Talking About This Unless I Wanted To Tell You.
Ready ?? Of Course Not.. Haha.
NOW! I Do Not Want To Offend Anybody With Anything That I Say Here Okay?  I Started To Figure This Out Honestly When I Was Like 13.. So Ive Had 6 Years So Far To Change, Confirm, Think About It.
Statistics:
 With In 3 Years Of My Age. 1 Year Younger - 2 Years Older Than Me.
Anywhere From about 5 ft. - 5'6 In Height. Tall Enough To Not Haft To Bend Over To Kiss Them But Short Enough That There Fun - Sized & Fucking Adorable =)
About 100 - 135 Pounds Depending On What There Height Actually Is. NOT JUST FOR SUPERFICIAL REASONS! I Have My Own Personal Reasons As Well As To Put It Simply, Ive Had My Heart Broken In The Same Amount Of Pieces By Slim, Thick & Heavier Girls Alike Okay... So Ill Stick With What I Would Prefer In The Case Of My "Dream Girl"...
Um, Blonde, Brunette, Black Hair, Redhead.. I Never Really Cared About Hair Color As Long As It Looks Hella Beautiful On Her But, I Did Always Know That I Want It To Be Shoulder Length For Sure & Not Curly, More Straight Or Wavy... & It Has To Have A Bad Knack Of Falling In Her Face Lol. So I Could Brush It Away.. Lol
As Far As Skin Color.. I Honestly Dont Care. Whites Fine But I Love A Good Tan Haha.
Im A Sucker For Accents So I Kind Of Always Pictured Her To Be British Haha.That Probably Wont Happen Tho & I Have Accepted That.  Oh! & Completely Straight Edge. 
About That Personality & Interests & What Not.. This Is Where It Gets Difficult. Very Difficult.
Batman, Hawkeye, Video Games(Playstation not Xbox), Tons Of Music Interests(Minus Country, Oldies & Classical), All Around Hilarious But, Can Be Serious When The Time Calls For It. Very Mature No Matter The Age, Ninjas,Samurais, ZEN, Tattoos, Piercings, Artistic, Photography, A Little Nerdy, Optimistic 90% Of The Time, Completely Open & Loyal To Those Who Deserve It. Curses All The Fucking Time ;P..
Likes To Go For Long Runs..& Even Longer Walks Especially At Night Under The Stars. Extremely Affectionate Both Psychically & Emotionally. Thats Really It.. I Am Into & About All Of These Things & She Truly & Honestly Would Haft To Be As Well... Thats All It. At Least Nothing More I Can Think Of Right Now Haha.
Then He Looked At Me & Said... "Bro.." & I Said... "Yes?"
He Turned Around, Started To Walk Away & Yelled Back... "Your Gonna Be Alone Forever!"
... Thanks... Bro.. Psh...

-BayLey

Sitting Dressed In Ash With 2 Empty Cans Of Gas, The Only Evidence They Have Is The Police Sketch Of My Mask.

Have You Ever Set Something On Fire?
Legit Question, Have You? Be Honest With Yourself Now. Cause If You Cant Be Honest With Yourself, Who Can You Be?
Its Fun Is It Not? Watching How Something Can Be So Powerful. It Always Starts So Small, Then It Feeds & Feeds & Grows & Destroys Everything In Its Path. Theres No Bargaining With It, No Begging For Mercy. It Will Eat You & Your Weakness. So Powerful, But You Can Keep It For Yourself, Locked In A Little Bottle. A Little Container. So... I Might Like Fire A Little Bit. Just A Bit =)
Most Days I Just Want To Watch The World Burn & Why Should It Not? You, Yourself Could Not Give Me At Least 2 Reasons To Save This Pathetic Piece Of Rock.
Most Days, Im Batman. Saving The World From Such Crisis But, This World Is Beyond Saving & To Be Honest I Truly Do Not Give A Shit Anymore.
Most Days, Im Batman. Trying To Save You All.
Lately However, Im Joker. Lighting The First Match...

-BayLey

You Were A Thief?... I Am A Thief My Lady. Were Not For These Chains, Id Steal Your Heart.

FACT: If The RIGHT Girl Came Along & Offered Me Whats Left Of Her Heart & Wanted Nothing More Than Me, I Would Give Her My All.
Now I Dont Know If Its Just Me Or Whatever But, I Cannot Even Believe That Some Of These Guys & Girls Are Even Near My Age Bracket. There Maturity & Really Just Common Sense Levels Are Nowhere Near Mine.
These Tricks Need To Get On My Level Haha.
Now Granted, Kali, My Ex. She Had A Ton Of Maturity To Her For Her Age.. But To Be Honest She Was More Like 30 Rather Than 20 Haha. So You Can Understand Why That It Was Just A Bit Much. I Try To Have Conversations With Other Guys & Its Like Im Talking To A Complete Dick Or Dumbass The Whole Time. For That Reason I Have A Very Tight Net Group Of Guys I Talk To.. 4 Of Them In Fact... & Oh Your God! When I Try To Have A Conversation With A Girl Even Like 18 Years Old Psh... I May As Well Be Talking To A Wall... It Would Be More Entertaining At The Very Least. Thats Why I Keep A Very Tight Net Group Of Them As Well..
Ive Said It Before & Ill Say It Again. I Truly Do Not Want To Be On This Planet Anymore.
Luckily, For This & Everything Else Recently, A Little Black Ops Goes A Long Way.

-BayLey

You Know The Problem With The Real World? Not Enough Fucking Dragons...

The Sweetest Thing About A Kiss On The Cheek... The Innocence.
My Guilty Pleasure Of Sorts. Im A Vampire So I Kind Of Feed Off It. The Feeling/Rush It Has With It.
Very Hard To Explain But At The Same Time Anyone Out There Who Still Enjoys One From Time To Time Knows Exactly What Im Going On About. It Feels So Much More Right Than A Hug & A Bit Sweeter Than A Kiss On The Lips. I Came To Realize That After Having One Today... It Has Been Almost 2 Years Since My Last. I Dont Even Remember Who With.. But That Does Not Take Away From The Awesome Feeling I Got Today From It. I Have Come To Figure, Its Something Worth Indulging Yourself With Every So Often.
So You Dont Get Sick Of It As Well As You Can Not Get Enough..
As Far As My Posting Tittle Goes. Its True, Dont You Think? We Could All Use Some More Dragons Haha.
At Least I Think So. =)
& In Case You Could Not Tell By This Posting.. Im A Little Weird, But In What Universe Would I Ever Be Normal. Would Not Happen.

-BayLey